I am learning that you must be blood to be in the Family. That no amount of time will cure that. So, soon I will be a widow and nothing but indifference will be met with by these people. They can’t open their heart to anyone but themselves. Ken wanted me to have a close relationship with them, especially after his death but they don’t want anything to do with me. It is on them, not me. I tired of being treated with no empathy or concern from them. 24 years of marriage and all I get from them is your just my father’s wife and nothing more. I think they like to hurt people because it makes them feel good about themselves.
So I will LET THEM GO AND LET ME LIVE ON WITHOUT THEM. I have a church and a few friends that will help me through this ordeal. It is very sad because I was so hoping his family would be supportive of me. And we could deal with Ken’s death together. It is okay though.. Let them be what they need to be. Right now, they are processing a lot of pain and I will probably be a sounding board to them in which I am too sensitive. I am also grieving the loss of Ken’s health and soon to be all of him. I will always be here for him no matter what. Right now, I am his care taker and wife. Not just his wife.
I was hoping that I could remain in Ken’s family to them but I don’t think they want me in their life’s. So be it.
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